Soul's Assignment [A Divine Agreement]

MODE Of Cosmic Therapy Ancient Esoteric Teaching: Innate Wisdom

Stop balking! It's high time to give yourself permission to thoroughly enjoy, while artistically creating, your life! {With no reservations, apologies, excuses, defences, or explanations!} No more pretending to be happy and satisfied while silently engaged in and on a volatile emotional roller coaster set on target to explode. {An unfortunate "time-released" emotional accident waiting to happen} You end up wearing various disguises in an attempt to diminish the overwhelming anxiety. Trying to maintain a 'facade' requires an enormous amount of energy. It becomes a real problem when you let the ideas of 'being denied' start to infiltrate your mind. The problem results from the fact that you have no idea where or when or on whom the repressed mental explosion will occur.

But mark these words: "The day will arrive." without your consciously invoked participation. Yes, the dreaded occasion will arrive when you unload on some unsuspecting soul 'some of the pent up repressed anger' you've accumulated. To add insult to injury, you will end up feeling guilty for your acting so inappropriately. Then, what will you do? You'll apologize, which diminishes your integrity. And, then you'll try to explain your unwarranted actions. Ha! It's a ferocious self-defeating cycle. A ridiculous merry-go-round. It's so pointless and futile to continue to live like this. You can't work long enough, hard enough, focused enough to get rid of that gnawing restless irritability.

When is the last time your checked the depth and tone of sarcasm in your voice? What are you waiting for? What do you think you have to lose? Why are you trying so hard to maintain a fictitious facade? Have you ever really stopped to sincerely ask yourself what it is that truly floats your boat? Every action you take part in is gauged by fear and control. Fear that you will lose the security of familiarity and the control that is necessary to uphold the horrendous story you've created in order to feel safe and maintained. Blow it to smitherines! Why spend such untold life-supporting energy and inherent youthful sensual life force trying to control situations and people who really bore and upset you? It's pointless for the both of you. The other ends up feeling like he/she is in prison (furious about the situation) while you are tied down being his/her so called "guardian".

Eliminate the need to be the warden. Give me a Break! (and, you too) Allow the other person the privilege to dispute you. Allow him/her to disagree and desire something entirely different from what you think he/she ought to want. {Incidentally, the only reason you are trying to think and decide for him/her is because you believe it benefits you in the long run.} Totally untrue. {Even though you believe, otherwise.}

The absolute worst experience you could ever go through is betrayal, (or so you think) followed by abandonment which is always attached to the event. But, as surprising as it may seem, no one can betray you except yourself. No one, no time, no place, no how. The same goes for abandonment. The abandonment you think you experience is solely linked to your refusal to accept your personal soul's assignment. You decided some where along the path to sublimate or delay your desires in exchange for the journey or presence of another You misappropriately decided that his/her life was more interesting and fulfilling than your own.

So you jumped ship to board the train of another's life. But make no bones about it, you were not guileless in your attempt. Your motives were premeditated and clear. You undertook the mission believing 'at sometime' you would benefit and gain something of worthwhile value that would increase you and your happiness. [IF, nothing more than to alleviate loneliness] Or even more delusional, you somehow contrived in your own mind that you could and would add beauty, joy, love, happiness, support or benefit to the other. HA! Wrong! So totally wrong!

Self- betrayal started in the very first moment you saw and seized the opportunity for so-called unity. No such thing. You are a solitary creature already united. No need to try to join with anything or anyone. You must maintain your own presence without the grand display of forfeiture. When you supposedly made the attempt to join another's efforts you forfeited your own. If you don't establish and make the natural effort to 'flow without resistance' you will end up erroneously believing that you can be, have been, will be cheated in some way or another but this is not true at all and never can be.

Self-betrayal begins and ends your self-absorbed paranoid plight. Stop looking to another whether Divine or Human for your salvation and redemption. Realize once and for all that you are a Master Manipulator who is totally self-intoxicated! No need to apologize but worse yet is to deny. You are perfectly fit for the task at hand. Whatever your particular Soul's Assignment decrees, you are up for the task. You were born with every asset, talent, gift and ability you would ever need to unfold and evolve; no other person carries any extra ingredient to add to your pie. You are a walking enigma to behold and bestow. You are the MOST important subject there is; you will always be. You have always known this but have invented clever undetectable entwining ways to either cover it up or mask it in some way or another. You wanted, desired, craved the attention you received when you thought you were preceived as a "nice, caring, loving, interested and concerned' person. But, what happens to you when you think you've been misunderstood or unfairly judged? You may have felt some sort of guilt for feeling so competent or vain. So in order to deny those belittling and contradictory feelings you exaggerated (acted out) in apparent loving and attentive ways. HA! Bull shit! You are not concerned with anything or anyone more than you are with yourself.

If you do not see this fact: Let immeasurable PAIN over take your body and see how concerned you are and for whom. Loving? Who do you love when you are hungry, cold, tired or in need of relieving yourself in the bathroom? You are literally 'scared to death' of your indifference. You can't possibly process much less tolerate how much you don't care. Until you realize and accept that you are a self-absorbed creature who does nothing without a desired result, you will remain in nebulous misery not knoiwng the source. Whether it be emotional, financial, mental, physical or spiritual, you will in no wise be free until you admit that you are self-sustaining and do nothing except that which ultimately brings you pleasure. You simply want to be entertained, fed, sexually stimulated, housed, clothed and allowed to empty your bowels when necessary. These actions boil down to one solitary motivating factor. You NEED to express in whatever way feels most natural and convenient for you. It's not selfish. It's the most selfless act you will ever enter into. It's all a matter of understanding and appreciating that nothing is disconnected from your existence.

COSMIC THERAPY is a self-induced concept that incorporates all of these gut-wrenching truths. It is everything you do, say, feel, enjoy and dislike. It's simply YOU expressed in the highest and lowest levels (one and the same). You are the only one who can and will decided to study the most important subject in the world: YOU! Are you ready yet? Let's do it! Open the door for incredible Therapeutic ENTERTAINMENT. Find out what thrills you the most! When you uncover your particular SOUL'S ASSIGNMENT, you will be entertained and artistically inspired beyond belief. No other avenue will do it for you. No other person alive can do it for you. You alone possess the creative "Treasure Chest" of salvation's unexpressed artistic talent. You will choose to exercise your innate gifts at your own pace, in your own time and under your own conditions. That's the deal for real. No more balking. It's showtime!!!

Guess what? The only salvation (therapy) going on is taking place within you and it's cosmic in nature.