Love

Love...what a powerful word, yet so frightening that grown men shudder at the thought of using it. So why is it that we feel so much love but rarely verbalize it, even with those we should be completely safe with saying it to? I don't have that answer at the moment, other than that perhaps we all suffer from some sort of disorder that prevents us from sharing our most sought after and elusive emotional connection.

I had been guilty of doing just that for most of my life until I met some amazing new friends a few years ago. Over the course of two to three years, I met a small group of people who loved and still love me for exactly who I am, right or wrong, good or bad and they were never afraid to tell me they loved me. We ended every conversation with "love you," never forced and always the most natural words in the world. We were great friends, still are, but they are now miles away. I have a couple friends here in Oregon who are beginning to be that way, but it isn't quite the same, although I have no problems telling them I love them, because I do.

Love is the most amazing feeling and it can be so any many things to different people, but it is the one thing we are all looking for. You can call it whatever you want, but we all look our entire lives, or as long as it takes, for that feeling of acceptance for who we are at that moment in time and hopefully forever.

The beauty of love is that it is forever in some form. Even if you fall in love with someone and then out of love with that person, you will always love them in some way. Whether we admit it or not, it's true and there's no need to deny it. There is no harm or shame in everlasting love, even when it isn't "the love" we are searching for as our ultimate. I can say with all honesty that every person I have ever been in love with, I still love, just not in the same way. Some of them, I can't even say that about, but I know it will never be, so I have moved on. Love is the one truth we have in life and although we become jaded, we still live with that glimmer (no matter how dim or bright) of hope for love. For many, it is the one motivation to get out of bed in the morning. I hope for everyone that they have more to live for than that, but if not, love is plenty to live for.

Being a true romantic at heart, I know that love is the end all for me and is more important than money or possessions. I don't just say this, I feel it and I believe it for me. The man who gets to love me (I love the sound of that, haha!) should know that I don't care about the money or the things he has, or will have. I don't need anything but him, just as he is. Okay, so we need enough money to live comfortably, but with 2 incomes, that seems pretty easy to accomplish.

Sorry, I got a little off track there; back to love and our simultaneous desire for it and fear of it. It hasn't been that long since I was not an overly expressive person when it came to my love for others because I was afraid they would reject me. I still live with the fear of rejection, just like most of us, however my fear of regret is probably greater than of rejection; so I tell people how I feel when it's possible.

Perhaps one day I will blog on my past and those who don't know will understand my idiosyncrasies a little more than they do now; but that is an unpleasant road to travel and I choose not to at this time. Plus I believe it's much more important to look at the obstacles I've overcome without the explanation of where they came from and why. If someone really wants to know, they can ask me and I will decide if I would like to venture down that road.

My point here with this blog on love is that it is everywhere and we feel it for our friends, family and significant other constantly so we should express it. Often we run through life not realizing we aren't guaranteed today or tomorrow and neither are the people in our lives that we love. So, take a moment to take inventory on when the last time it was you told the important people in your life that you love them. If it's been too long, I suggest you write, call, text message or email them and let them know.

The words I love you are not scary and never should be. If they become as such, everything they stand for is negated. Make today a day of love and tell all your friends and family that you love them exactly as they are, no conditions. I have a feeling you will feel fantastic when you're done and so will they. All the best to you in making your day of love a success.

Empower & Improve U

Love & Light
Meaza